The fear of returning to the site of your worst-ever allergic reaction is real. I want to go, because I know it will be super fun, but I'm also fighting to keep the nightmares and PTSD controlled enough to actually enjoy the experience. I'm also fighting the urge to starve myself. I will bring food, but not enough to sustain me for nine very active days. (I will eat plain garden salad from their PN/TN-free kitchen, so I won't totally starve, but it still won't be enough food.) I have been back to this location once since the reaction and was ok, and had a great time. I have friends who will look out for me. I just wish I could feel excited instead of terrified.